You may be determined to turn things around, there may be many obstacles and others may be trying to impose their way of thinking on you. There may be a massive struggle to be independent and self-confident. Mastering your emotions may be key to you transforming things and truly helping others.
You may feel you want to be in another distant far off place right now, but still your mind and you will see that where you are, is exactly the right place for you to learn what you need to learn for transformation to occur.