Try to stay inspired and in touch with the much bigger picture, spend no time comparing yourself to others and feeling you do not fit in and that you are not good enough. Your control is admirable, but so is spontaneity. Laugh at your foibles and faults, perhaps allowing someone other than yourself to be your teacher. Focus on taking positive action rather than planning in detail and getting frustrated. There are great opportunities here for growth and transformation, if you can accept change and responsibility.