You very much want security and to feel in control, but you also need freedom. You are very sensitive and may go to great lengths to hide this. You may feel sceptical about this, but the freedom you so need is already inside you and the spiritual can be a key to you finding this. Your sensitivity is also a great strength, especially when it initiates things. Block your sensitivity and you are also blocking great creativity and a great potential for freedom. Blocking in itself is also exhausting and unsustainable.
Focus on building your own structure and finding freedom within this. Beware of the words pouring out of you.