Get past your frustration and master your emotions, perhaps let your great sense of responsibility over ride all of this, allowing you to feel the fear and do it anyway and become inspired again. You may not be able to apply your ideas as you would like to, but maintain your far-reaching breadth of vision and you will get to the top. Getting your job done in your own unique way is what matters to you and it is this that will win you the love and respect of others. So seize the day !!!